speacial thanks to gouou and keithy for creating and decorating this blog for me.
i did not blog bcos i rarely got the time to, i am blogging now bcos i cant sleep.
got woke up my gougou call, later got awake by her msg.
the fear in me, have just hit me. i understand keith was trying to help.
did not realise when, she was link to my everyday,
i get use to waking her up in the morning,
use to remind her not to skip her meals,
always thinking of her.
i did not express myself, bcos i felt that this relation between me and she was fine,
just to be around her, just to have her around, days are brighten up.
slowly she became important to me, i did not want to risk this relationship,
thats the fear i am talking about.
also bcos i, myself noe where i stand in her.
its very not far, but not yet close.
breaking the rules of my room, going to light a puff now.
god damn sucks, did not realise my cigarettes box gone empty!! fuck
fucking awake now with no cigarettes. ZZZzzzzzzzzzZ
goshhh, i heard the bird noise liao, bababa 5.40am thats wat my com show.
suddenly i felt so hungry, but i guess is empty ba.